Growing Up

This is what I wore for a client meeting today. I love the mustard with the deep red, and I think they compliment the black and white pattern beautifully. I like the tulip sleeves on this top – they make it just a little more special. (Side note: look at that lush veggie garden behind me…mmmm). Linking up at Marionberry Style today.

It has been a CRAZY past three weeks for me! Siblings moving, travel, client meetings, lots of logo designing, baking, car washing, green smoothie drinking, visits with friends…it’s amazing how I feel busy, yet I don’t feel busy. After my college graduation, I went to a conference with my mom, sister, and best friend and right after that, I went to Ireland for a few weeks with a friend and had an unforgettable time. Then…real, post-college life started. I applied for jobs, got my hopes up about many, but nothing worked out. I turned down a few offers that I didn’t feel would take me in the direction I wanted to go with my career. Finally I started focusing my time more on freelancing. It’s going well, but obviously it takes time to build up enough business to make a living.

Problem is, I don’t feel like freelance is what I should be doing full time at this point in my life. I feel secluded and cramped. I miss the companionship I had while in college. I miss having a group of coworkers I get to see everyday…I miss being part of a team. I miss the structure that my days had while in school and working my design job there. I miss having someone beside me, across the room from me, or down the hall from me that I can get feedback from on my designs. I miss getting dressed up everyday (freelance = work at home = loungewear). Sure I could get dressed everyday and create a 9-5 schedule for myself, but it’s just not the same being at home working by myself. So I guess the reason I don’t feel busy, despite the fact that I am, is because I spend my days at home rather than in school or “at work”.

As for feeling cramped, my bedroom in my parents’ house feels smaller everyday, and I envy my brother and sister who each have their own place (plus, the interior designer in me is anxious to do some decorating).

I should be thankful that I have projects to work on, a place to live, and friends - and I am – but it’s hard when my siblings are all moving on and I’m still here. I guess I just have to keep pressing on and trust that the perfect job for me is just right over the horizon.

Sorry for the crazy long personal post. It just kinda happened.

top: secondhand Banana Republic
pants: secondhand Fade to Blue
shoes: secondhand Cole Haan
belt: target
earrings: secondhand

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